awake babies

i ate some extra dark chocolate, (because i had to)and the twins are doing the happy chocolate dance. i am just sitting here watching my belly, laughing at themi am so in love with themand having them in my bellyfeeling them movehaving them surprise me with a random hard kicki am sad... ...thinking that they will not be in there much longer...that this will probably be my only pregnancy...thinking that if one thing were different i would never have had this experiencei am overwhelmed and exhausted and hyped up on chocolate. and stuck in the divot in the feather bed. loli cannot roll myself out, jeani usually pushes me.and the sad part is i am not even that big yet. LOLOLi need a nap