jaxen videos

http://youtube.com/lizardjee

update

had the twins in sept, jaeci died in october, they do not know why. i am updating everything at livejournal.. http://lizardjee.livejournal.com/profile

lost

www.lost.eu/d565 <---here is your invite. <3 join the millions of sheep..

LOST is a student project that aims to show how 7 million people can connect to each other. It's also a game, and is trying to reach the highest number of players for any game, ever.

md appointment

it all went well.
i gave them the heads up that the insurance company is going to fight this again, the doctor said that the MFM doctor is going to fight back to have me keep until the pump until 37weeks! we are the office favorites i think. it helps to have an inside.;)

the 2 doctors that were there after the appointment and were talking to us said that it would be no problem to have them both scrub the c/s, (i work at a teaching hospital and there are only interns there during the day, the interns that just started to work in July, ugh)

so both practices are pushing to get the twins to 37 weeks and plan a c/s, lets just hope that my body complies.

ANYWAY.

i now have living room (recliner/showtime to watch weeds ) and outside (sitting only) privileges.

she said to listen to my body and go back to bed if i am uncomfortable and they will check my cervix in 2 weeks. i could land back in bed or the hospital if there is change, but since the pump is working they are anticipating that i will be ok.

looking ahead

i have always loved fall
the start of a new year for me
(my birthday is in october)
i love the brightness of the leaves changing
the sun that is warm but not too warm
breezes that bring familiar and comforting smells
i have been having dreams of days like these
jeani and i outside
each holding a baby
having the scent of the top of his/her head
mingle into the mix
sigh..

routine

i started to take showers every other day,
"washing" with baby wipes on the other day.
and i am shaving my head once a week.
just trying to keep some sort of routine.
trying to feel human
normal
it gives me somthing to look forward to
i love my showers,
if i have not posted that enough.

tomorrow

i have a doctors appointment tomorrow at 345p.
i am not quite sure what they are going to do
listen to the babies? they are trying to do cultures and a pap smear, but i really do not want anything irritating my cervix
its just with the ob, so no pictures.
i am happy that i have my weight up to where it is suppose to be.